..NERVOUS..

Never thought of me being 17. I'm freaking nervous when I'm thinking about it. It's like entering a new world. Like thinking of me making my own decision. Leading my new drama life. Just thinking of it makes me feel like I'm going to die. I'm so scared. I'm not making it such a big deal or anything. But, it is a big deal. So much of drama! Being 17 is a lot of things. You don't know where things going to be smooth or you're going to have difficulties surrounding you. Not like I haven't met with any obstacles before, it's just things are different. I have no intends talking crap about this stuff but I was so nervous that i feel like typing my heart out tonight!  I guess being 17 is everything I don't want to be. I just don't feel like celebrating my birthday this 2011 year. It feels not right somehow. What should I do?? My ice cold hands are shaking. My lips trembling. My heart pounding fast. My entire body did not move the way they should. My mind is not at ease. Why is it so hard??? It's like first love come around and you don't know the right words to say. Then, you end up fooling yourself in front of the one that you thought might be something new in your life. That is sure something. I hope things will turn up just fine. I keep thinking about exams and friends and loads! I wish my worriness ends tonight.