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| Fragile! |
Word can’t describe how my heart crashed! Even music can’t make me feel better.
That’s how you make me. You’re the one to blame at first.
However dear, I finally realized that... If this was the end of everything we used to be then I can’t say more than that. I’m willingly to go with the wind and pretended that we never used to be one who used to support each other through bad or good times. If this was the case, I’d rather lose this one-side kind of friendship than to pretend that we’re okay. I can pretend like I always do but I am very tired and I have given up trying to fix what’s broken. I have made my decision to just let things go and I’ll eventually will have to lose myself to and disappear from people sight and isolate myself from people who might just give me nothing but the worst. Btw, I lost your letter. I’m sorry I didn’t get the chance to read but I know I’ll be heartbroken once I read it.
So far, I love myself just the way I am right now. Somehow I feel like I’m at peace and to be honest I like myself more than ever. Whatever has happened to us, there must be a reason behind all of these.
I’m sorry I cannot give you the best as you always want but I did try, right? Now that I’ve given up of everything we were, I feel more at ease. I feel that I have nothing to be cared about other than myself. You might just think how selfish I am but you haven’t evaluate yourself either way around.
You can’t always blame people and ask for perfections’. Because I know I can’t ever be perfectionist and I’ll stay that way forever. And if I ever happen to hurt your feeling, I must say that sometimes you deserve to get hurt. Sorry to say this but you think too much of yourself. I may have lack of everything and those lies just to make you feel more worth than ever. I hate to make statement here. Sometimes, when things doesn’t run your way...don’t ever hold it and give people a damn of your attitude.
If people don’t like me for who I am and have something to say to me and talk behind my back when I believe that I have once called her FRIEND. Well, what more I can say now?? Do you think I like all of you?? I don’t. But I never told anyone a piece about it. Because I thought that people have attitude and personalities, I accept you the way you are. But if you don’t like me for who I am and change me for who I am not. You can forget about me. I like myself just like this. So, you don’t like an ass-bitch attitude. Leave me. Don’t spit a word about me. Leave and forget. That’s it.
Don’t make things like that such a big deal. Keep it to your own. If I ever heard again stuff like that breathing in the air, I’m going to mess up your life next.
Back then it was good. I do hope it lasts after all this is my last year. I want to make good memories.
I’m not an angel dear. I’m a bit mess up. 0_0 Try to be in my situation than u’ll know how it hurts and I cry every single night. THANKS TO YOU.
THaNkS for making my life bizarre.
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| I do miss our fun! |
